Remember not our past

Posted on March 9, 2009 by paulcoholic

The Responsorial Psalm for the Mass for Monday of the Second Week of Lent helps those of us who have done the 12 Steps, or at least have gone through the first 5 (the moral inventory and the sharing of that with another).

Psalm 79: 8,9,11,13: “Remember not against us the iniquities of the past;
may your compassion quickly come to us,
for we are brought very low.

Help us, O God our savior,
because of the glory of your name;
Deliver us and pardon our sins
for your name’s sake.

Let the prisoners’ sighing come before you;
with your great power free those doomed to death.
Then we, your people and the sheep of your pasture,
will give thanks to you forever;
through all generations we will declare your praise.
“

(Via USCCB.)

We all have “a past”. We all have things that we wish we never did, and want that they just “go away”, not to be remembered by anyone.

With the passage of time, things do indeed dim and are replaced by other events and memories, some good, some bad. The thing that we are concerned with is what mark on our souls and impact upon our eternal life that our past has had.

God is the judge of that. He looks upon our lives and sees where we went astray, but also when we repented and returned to Him. We repent (a conversion of our heart away from the sin and resolve to not commit it again), go to Confession and beseech the Lord to forgive us, and He will. The sins of our past will “not be remembered”, and no longer held against us.

This is important for us alcoholics and addicts who wrestle with our consciences about whatever we had done in the past, especially when memories return to haunt us. Meditating upon this during the season of Lent will help us cope with the weight of our misdeeds.

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Listen to Him

Posted on March 8, 2009 by paulcoholic

The Gospel Reading for the Second Sunday of Lent is a familiar one: it is the Transfiguration of Jesus.

Mark 9:2-10: “Jesus took Peter, James, and John
and led them up a high mountain apart by themselves.
And he was transfigured before them,
and his clothes became dazzling white,
such as no fuller on earth could bleach them.
Then Elijah appeared to them along with Moses,
and they were conversing with Jesus.
Then Peter said to Jesus in reply,
‘Rabbi, it is good that we are here!
Let us make three tents:
one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.’
He hardly knew what to say, they were so terrified.
Then a cloud came, casting a shadow over them;
from the cloud came a voice,
‘This is my beloved Son. Listen to him.’
Suddenly, looking around, they no longer saw anyone
but Jesus alone with them.

As they were coming down from the mountain,
he charged them not to relate what they had seen to anyone,
except when the Son of Man had risen from the dead.
So they kept the matter to themselves,
questioning what rising from the dead meant.”

(Via USCCB.)

A key phrase in the passage from Mark is “Listen to Him.” The voice is God, issuing a command. God is endorsing the authority of Jesus to teach and to lead. In light of yesterday’s post to “Just Do It”, it is interesting that this follows.

We are to listen to Jesus, to do as He says, to live as He lived. He will guide us through the dark times and on to the good. We need to get through “Good Friday” before we can get to “Easter Sunday”.

I had written a post on the Transfiguration before, as a Rosary meditation.

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Just Do It

Posted on March 7, 2009 by paulcoholic

The Readings for Mass for the Saturday in the First Week of Lent have a theme that essentially states that following the law of the Lord (keeping His commandments and doing His will) brings happiness. I will just post a link to all three readings instead of copying-and-pasting them here:

Readings for Saturday of the First Week of Lent

Via USCCB.)

This is arguably not an easy concept to grasp and follow. The secular world clearly does not equate “obedience” and “following the Law” with “freedom” and “happiness”. The secular world tells you to follow your own conscience, conveniently forgetting (or not realizing) that there is really no such thing as a “free-thinker”, or one who is truly independent. Everyone’s conscience is formed and influenced by something, be it by social organizations, political parties, or popular media.

In a contradiction typical of Christianity (such as a death means life), obeying God and doing His will regardless of the “world’s” sensibilities is freedom and liberation. In doing so, we are freed of the limitations imposed upon us by times and trends, by shifting and changing attitudes and human “truths”, and are connected to the eternal wisdom of God. We are not restrained by mere human, secular, relative ideals.

How does this relate to us sober (or sobering up) alcoholics?

The world tells us in general to avoid doing the hard things. “If it feels good, do it.” “Don’t rock the boat.” “Go with the flow.” And forget about interior conversion and struggling to change your life, unless you’re doing it by some pop “self-help” book which usually describes an easy way out, avoiding sacrifice.

We alcoholics with any degree of sustained sobriety know better. We have struggled to retrain ourselves how to react to things, to not drown our sorrows and troubles in some false and empty escapism. We have learned to trust in God, and to seek His way in all things.

We can take this further as sober Catholics and obey Church teaching, having learned that Jesus established the Church and promised to never abandon it, and that the Holy Spirit will guide it until the end of time, keeping it from teaching things contrary to what Jesus and the Apostles taught. Talk about being “countercultural” and being apart from the “world’s” ways.

So, “just do it.” Be a Catholic if you are one. And be the best that you can be. It will not be an easy road, for nothing good is truly easy. The rewards are many, even if seemingly far off. Your dignity as a human being is enhanced, as your life has an intrinsic, sacred value. This is far away from the world’s notion that life is cheap and can be bought and sold, or terminated for convenience.

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Seized with mortal anguish

Posted on March 5, 2009 by paulcoholic

In the First Reading from the Daily Mass for the Thursday of the First Week of Lent, Queen Esther was gripped with mortal anxiety over the impending genocide of the Hebrew nation. She prayed to God.

Esther C: 12,14-16,23-25: “Queen Esther, seized with mortal anguish,
had recourse to the LORD.
She lay prostrate upon the ground, together with her handmaids,
from morning until evening, and said:
‘God of Abraham, God of Isaac, and God of Jacob, blessed are you.
Help me, who am alone and have no help but you,
for I am taking my life in my hand.
As a child I used to hear from the books of my forefathers
that you, O LORD, always free those who are pleasing to you.
Now help me, who am alone and have no one but you,
O LORD, my God.

‘And now, come to help me, an orphan.
Put in my mouth persuasive words in the presence of the lion
and turn his heart to hatred for our enemy,
so that he and those who are in league with him may perish.
Save us from the hand of our enemies;
turn our mourning into gladness
and our sorrows into wholeness.’ “

(Via USCCB.)

The idea of being “seized with mortal anguish” is familiar to any alcoholic and addict. When we’ve “hit bottom” and have lost important things and wonder if losing our life is next, or during sobriety when we’ve received several shocks to our lives and that sobriety is threatened, “aloneness” grips us and we feel there is no one out there, perhaps not even God, who cares.

Esther was in that position, but she remembered the religion of her youth and what it taught her. She had recourse to the Lord and sought His help.

Within the excerpt from today’s Mass reading, I emboldened a few phrases. From these we can construct a prayer for alcoholics and addicts who have hit bottom, or are going through severely trying times:

O Lord, my soul is seized with mortal fear,
I have recourse only to you.

Help me, who am alone and have no help but you,
for I am taking my life in my hand.

Take my mourning and turn it into gladness
and my sorrows into wholeness.’

Now help me, who am alone and have no one but you,
O LORD, my God.

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So Jonah went to Nineveh and this happened

Posted on March 4, 2009 by paulcoholic

Everyone in the secular world focuses on the fishy part of the story of Jonah. They don’t pay too much attention to the key part of the reason for the Jonah epic in today’s First Reading in the Daily Mass from Wednesday of the First Week of Lent:

Jonah 3:1-10: “The word of the LORD came to Jonah a second time:
‘Set out for the great city of Nineveh,
and announce to it the message that I will tell you.’
So Jonah made ready and went to Nineveh,
according to the LORD’s bidding.
Now Nineveh was an enormously large city;
it took three days to go through it.
Jonah began his journey through the city,
and had gone but a single day’s walk announcing,
‘Forty days more and Nineveh shall be destroyed,’
when the people of Nineveh believed God;
they proclaimed a fast
and all of them, great and small, put on sackcloth.

When the news reached the king of Nineveh,
he rose from his throne, laid aside his robe,
covered himself with sackcloth, and sat in the ashes.
Then he had this proclaimed throughout Nineveh,
by decree of the king and his nobles:
‘Neither man nor beast, neither cattle nor sheep,
shall taste anything;
they shall not eat, nor shall they drink water.
Man and beast shall be covered with sackcloth and call loudly to God;
every man shall turn from his evil way
and from the violence he has in hand.
Who knows, God may relent and forgive, and withhold his blazing wrath,
so that we shall not perish.’
When God saw by their actions how they turned from their evil way,
he repented of the evil that he had threatened to do to them;
he did not carry it out.”

(Via USCCB.)

It seems that the people of Nineveh (which is I think modern-day Mosul, Iraq) repented and converted immediately upon hearing Jonah’s warning. It says that “when the people of Nineveh believed God…” after Jonah had gone “but a single day’s walk.” After all, it took 3 days to go through it, but word apparently spread more quickly than Jonah’s passage. Perhaps quite unlike the Second Step of Twelve Step movements which implies a conversion process over time. (“Came to believe…”).

When the warning signs appear on your horizon and threaten your serenity and sobriety, what do you do? Do you heed them as soon as humanly possible? Have you trained yourself to recognize the “red flags” that serve as interior warning signs of probable doom? Or do you turn aside and hope they go away?

You do not need to put on sackcloth and sit in ashes to serve as a repentance. Remove the veil from your eyes and see the danger that threatens you and turn to the Lord for help. The last stanza from Psalm 18 excerpted in today’s Morning Prayer is one of my favorite Scriptural passages:

Psalm 18:29-30: “You, LORD, give light to my lamp; my God brightens the darkness about me. With you I can rush an armed band, with my God to help I can leap a wall.”

(Via USCCB.)

Ask God for help in steering clear of the danger to you. Without Him you can do nothing, with Him, anything is possible.

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The only prayer you ever really need

Posted on March 3, 2009 by paulcoholic

In the Gospel Reading for this, the Tuesday of the First Week of Lent, Jesus teaches His disciples how to pray. Please read this post from a few years ago.

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Have mercy on me, Lord

Posted on February 27, 2009 by paulcoholic

The Responsorial Psalm from the Daily Mass for the Friday after Ash Wednesday is an excellent prayer of repentance and petitioning God for forgiveness (I pasted the full text here):

Psalm 51: “Have mercy on me, God, in your goodness; in your abundant compassion blot out my offense.

Wash away all my guilt; from my sin cleanse me.

For I know my offense; my sin is always before me.

Against you alone have I sinned; I have done such evil in your sight That you are just in your sentence, blameless when you condemn.

True, I was born guilty, a sinner, even as my mother conceived me.

Still, you insist on sincerity of heart; in my inmost being teach me wisdom.

Cleanse me with hyssop, that I may be pure; wash me, make me whiter than snow.

Let me hear sounds of joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

Turn away your face from my sins; blot out all my guilt.

A clean heart create for me, God; renew in me a steadfast spirit.

Do not drive me from your presence, nor take from me your holy spirit.

Restore my joy in your salvation; sustain in me a willing spirit.

I will teach the wicked your ways, that sinners may return to you.

Rescue me from death, God, my saving God, that my tongue may praise your healing power.

Lord, open my lips; my mouth will proclaim your praise.

For you do not desire sacrifice; a burnt offering you would not accept.

My sacrifice, God, is a broken spirit; God, do not spurn a broken, humbled heart.

Make Zion prosper in your good pleasure; rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.

Then you will be pleased with proper sacrifice, burnt offerings and holocausts; then bullocks will be offered on your altar.”

(Via USCCB.)

It is a prayer that would make an appropriate companion to the nightly examination of conscience that Catholics and people in 12 Step Movements are supposed to do. For that matter it would make a wonderful prayer during a Step 5 and Step 7.

But apart from the Steps and a nightly examen, read it slowly at first, dwelling upon each line and savor how the words of the prayer are very healing. It was written by Kind David, after being confronted by his adulterous and murderous affair with Bathsheba.

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Take up your cross daily and follow Him

Posted on February 26, 2009 by paulcoholic

On this, the Thursday after Ash Wednesday, the message is clear:

Luke 9:22-25: “Jesus said to his disciples:
‘The Son of Man must suffer greatly and be rejected
by the elders, the chief priests, and the scribes,
and be killed and on the third day be raised.’

Then he said to all,
‘If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself
and take up his cross daily and follow me.
For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it,
but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.
What profit is there for one to gain the whole world
yet lose or forfeit himself?’“

(Via USCCB.)

Ponder this today and oftentimes afterwards for a guide as to how well a disciple of Jesus you are.

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Return to me with your whole heart

Posted on February 25, 2009 by paulcoholic

Today is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent. The First Reading from today’s Mass is from the Prophecy of Joel:

Joel 2:12-18: “Even now, says the LORD,
return to me with your whole heart,
with fasting, and weeping, and mourning;
Rend your hearts, not your garments,
and return to the LORD, your God.
For gracious and merciful is he,
slow to anger, rich in kindness,
and relenting in punishment.
Perhaps he will again relent
and leave behind him a blessing,
Offerings and libations
for the LORD, your God.

Blow the trumpet in Zion!
proclaim a fast,
call an assembly;
Gather the people,
notify the congregation;
Assemble the elders,
gather the children
and the infants at the breast;
Let the bridegroom quit his room
and the bride her chamber.
Between the porch and the altar
let the priests, the ministers of the LORD, weep,
And say, ‘Spare, O LORD, your people,
and make not your heritage a reproach,
with the nations ruling over them!
Why should they say among the peoples,
‘Where is their God?”

Then the LORD was stirred to concern for his land
and took pity on his people.”

(Via USCCB.)

Lent is a time of repentance and of preparation for the Lord’s suffering, death and resurrection. These are the things that we are expected to believe in as Catholic Christians and apply to our own lives. We accept all suffering that comes into our lives a sign our willingness to “be like Christ” who suffered for us. We should die to the world and reject its transitory and false teachings and values. And if we do these things, we will at the end of the world be resurrected and live forever with God in Heaven.

Lent foreshadows this and is the time we spend in contemplative reflection, examining our consciences and ridding ourselves of faults and defects that separate us from God. It is one of my favorite times of the year as it was probably the first season of the Church’s liturgical year that I started to closely identify Church spirituality with the 12 Steps of AA. A number of AA’s Steps deal with “examination of conscience” and ridding oneself of “character defects.” Lent is a great time to apply this mix of Catholic spirituality and 12 Step practice.

So, starting today, “rend your hearts”, and “fast” from worldly attractions and “mourn and weep” over past separation from God that these attractions have caused. God is “gracious and merciful” and will take “pity on His people”, which is us, His adopted children.

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