Virtue without examination is wasted

St. Dorotheus reiterates the importance of an examination of conscience (what he call “self-accusation”).

It does not matter how many virtues a man may have, even if they are beyond number and limit. If he has turned from the path of self-accusation, he will never find peace. He will always be troubled himself, or else he will be a source of trouble for others and all his labors will be wasted.

From the teachings of St. Dorotheus, abbot

(Via Idaho Lay Dominicans.)

The interior self is the root or cornerstone of your being. If it is in conflict due to your defects of character it is causing you to sin. Therefore, whatever virtues you are practicing are merely external ones, and do not reflect your true self. They serve as a cover. Just like a homeowner who puts up aluminum or vinyl siding on a house with a rotting interior, it is a facade.

Works have no meaning without a sincere underlying faith that generates the works. Doing good deeds for the sake of them may be beneficial to others, but are useless to yourself without the accompanying interior mortification and reflection.

In short, your “true self” is liberated with a good examination of conscience, and the resulting amending of your life. From this basis, your virtues are sincere and their application in daily living bears more fruit, both for yourself and for others.

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The rebuilding

My series of meditations on Psalm 51 was thought to be over as the Biblical margin notes indicated that the last 2 verses had been added substantially later and are also different in tone and focus (probably due to their later addition). I have reconsidered not including them, as they are a good reminder of some of the benefits of repentance, and the subsequent opportunity to build on what was completed in the penitential conversion. The main reason that I reconsidered is that Lent is upon us, and with its focus on repentance, conversion and ultimately death, I figured verses 20 & 21 would be a foretaste of the aftermath of a “good Lent.”

Psalm 51:20-21: “Make Zion prosper in your good pleasure; rebuild the walls of Jerusalem. Then you will be pleased with proper sacrifice, burnt offerings and holocausts; then bullocks will be offered on your altar.”

(Via USCCB.)

We are all sinners, we are unclean before God. We come to Him with our sins, presenting them as means for cleansing us of our impurities. Remorse and sorrow for our sins combined with our love for God causes us to embark upon a penitential journey. We are humble and sorrowful, and wish to do better in His sight. Our sins humble us, and make us realize that our actions are imperfect. We need His grace to save us, and by His grace we do the things needed to build up His Kingdom on Earth, for that is how we can grab a foretaste of Heaven. Our works alone do not save us, but in concert with His grace, they provide the evidence needed to establish a testimony to His goodness. We are made in the image and likeness of God, and as such even our works, under the influence of His grace, reflect Him in our lives.

It is through repentance and turning back to the Lord that we are then capable of offering up a proper sacrifice of ourselves, through the offering up of our daily troubles and imperfections, our sufferings and joys.

Lent is upon us. Start thinking of areas in which you are deficient in your devotion to God. Figure out where to amend your life.

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How often do you pray and go to Church? Part 5 (Conclusion)

In the previous four posts of this series I wrote about the things in the Catholic Faith that a Catholic can use to live a life that could be free of alcohol and drugs.

“Catholic” means universal. A catholic life derived from the Catholic Faith would mean using all of the resources of the Faith in guiding and ordering a life. This would include using it in your struggle to stay clean and sober. It would mean that Catholic Christianity molds and guides your thoughts and actions, and what strengthens you to get through each day. Everything that I mentioned in the previous 4 posts can help guide or order your day. Just as alcohol and drugs were used “back in the day” to get through things and how the addiction was the source and summit of life, so too can Catholicism be the new priority in life. And a free and liberated life, at that.

Here is a sample day (obviously a rough sketch of a possible Catholic life. But the notion is there. Some variant is possible for everyone):

You awaken. Instead of staring at the ceiling or wall resentful at having survived the night, or trying to remember what happened the last time you saw the day, you are pretty well refreshed from a good sleep. You thank the Lord for a good night, and seek His guidance for the day.

“Lord, not my will, but Yours be done.”

(Your morning routine is set, whatever it is concerning breakfast and morning beverage.) But now it is time to devote to God. You pray a Morning Offering and a few other set prayers, then reach for the Bible and start your daily lectio divina. This spiritual meditative exercise fortifies you, as the Word of God jump starts your mind. As like your first few daily shots of alcohol set a fire to you after your first waking moments back then, now it is Scripture that gives you a focus.

This meditation completed, your get your Divine Office and pray the first section, the “Office of Readings.”

You get ready for the day, and take your Breviary with you (either the book or your cell if it is on your mobile 🙂 ) You head for Daily Mass en route to work. Prior to Mass, while sitting in Church, you read the Morning Prayer section of the Breviary. Usually there may be a connection to the Daily Mass readings.

Mass begins… you listen intently to the prayers and responses and the Readings, and you do not recite things, you pray them. You understand the Mass. Jesus is here.

Off to work, the Lord still within you as you had received Communion. Your commute is long enough so that you have enough time to pray the Rosary while driving (or sitting in public transit.) You prefer this to the raucous noise of morning radio. You don’t want the world to intrude, just yet. You let your mind go over the Mysteries of the day for the Rosary, and you think about their meaning. You get to work. You go about your morning.

Lunchtime. Time for Daytime Prayer. You turn to the prayers for mid-day and read them in the Breviary. Perhaps you also read the Breviary during a morning break, or maybe just a selection from a pocket New Testament. Nevertheless, you now punctuate your workday with Scripture and prayer, rather than swigs from a concealed bottle containing vodka (vodka because it is “odorless and leaves no taste on your breath.” Yeah, right.) Prayer and the Word of God gives you the strength and courage to make it through work.

Time to leave, you go home. Dinner, and now Evening Prayer from the Breviary. The evening is ahead of you. Drinking is not on the agenda, the thought hasn’t even crossed your mind.

Anyway, as you prepare for bed, you review the day, as you will be doing an examination of conscience with the Breviary’s “Night Prayer.” You review and recall any sins of commission and omission.

Night Prayer said, you go to sleep.

“Into Your hands, Father, I commend my spirit.”

The point of this series and its Conclusion is to underscore that as much as one drank in the past, there is a prayerful and Scriptural counterpoint to that life. Catholic beliefs and religious practices, from Mass attendance to prayer to devotions such as the Rosary, can provide a consummate life that envelopes you. Your mind will be re-programmed to not require a drink to cope. While a 12 Step or some other recovery program can provide some tools to help you cope, these sometimes run the danger of preventing you from seeking the fullness of the Faith that Jesus established in Earth. They may be the “easier, softer way,” but as Jesus said the road to Heaven passes through the narrow gate. Things that distract you, that deflect your eyes from the prize, should be discarded or put into their proper place. Heaven is your goal on the “Road of Happy Destiny.” Scriptural passages studies and learned, examples from the lives of the Saints can give you the boost and support needed to counter the dark ways of the world, or at least assist you in maintaining a healthy balance and perspective.

Adding the study of the Catechism of the Catholic Church (“CCC”), and there is an excellent resource to “validate” your choices. I never even mentioned the CCC in this series, but it is the best companion to the Bible out there. Full of objective truth gleaned from Scripture and the writings of the Popes and Saints, the CCC helps “fortify” you in ways few things can, next to the Bible.

They can give you the tools needed for you to you react differently to things, whereas in the past you relied on alcohol, and now perhaps on meeting dependency and slogans, Scriptural passages and the CCC can be the “ammunition” to fire back at the stuff life throws at you.

Lessons learned from studying Truth.

This is freedom, this is liberation. Instead of being a slave to alcohol and drugs, you are your own person. True freedom isn’t in doing whatever you want, with little thought to the consequences to yourself or to others. True freedom lies in being the best person that you can be, the person God intended you to be. Your true self. That is what you should Recover.

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Let the words pour forth

The 17th verse of Psalm 51 is also the beginning of the Church’s prayer day in the Divine Office (See the Universalis link at the top of the page, should be a yellowish bar.)

Psalm 51:17: “Lord, open my lips; my mouth will proclaim your praise.”

(Via USCCB.)

Every day the Church begins her prayer with a petition for the Lord to enable the prayerful to sing God’s praises. In this verse, the penitent continues to show their gratitude for the Lord’s work in their lives. A daily reminder for the penitent, as we all begin the day anew. And in our start each day, what do we remind ourselves? Gratitude and love for the Lord, Who saves us from ourselves. Each day is a new beginning, a new chance to grow closer to God, but also a new chance to mess things up again.

The practice of daily prayer, particularly in the beginning, enables us to start the day right, with a proper orientation to the divine.

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Rescue me

The 16th verse of Psalm 51 is about gratitude, in a fundamental and loving way:

Psalm 51:16: “Rescue me from death, God, my saving God, that my tongue may praise your healing power.”

The penitent fully realizes that life depends upon God, and only God can save them from death. I think the eternal death, damnation. The petitioner seeks to eventually arrive in Heaven and sing God’s praises for eternity.

The petitioner hopes to return the love God showed in forgiving the sinful past by praising (loving) God forever. The soul of the penitent will be in blissful union with its beloved, never to be parted.

Psalm 30:10-11: “What gain is there from my lifeblood, from my going down to the grave? Does dust give you thanks or declare your faithfulness? Hear, O LORD, have mercy on me; LORD, be my helper.'”

(All Scripture passages via USCCB.)

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Responding to the annoying

Nice article from Spirit Daily about reacting to the annoying people in our lives, and how to profit from them:

“WHEN SOMEONE IRKS YOU, CAST OUT DEFECT THAT MAY CONNECT YOU AND RISE ABOVE IT”:

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Restore my joy

In the 14th verse of Psalm 51 the penitent looks towards their destiny:

Psalm 51:14: “Restore my joy in your salvation; sustain in me a willing spirit”

(Via USCCB.)

Happiness is being on the path to Heaven, it is the true joy that fills your soul and gives your life its meaning. This particular happiness is not an attachment to Earthly things. It is the “true joy” that fills our soul with a desire for union with God and a yearning for our true home and helps free us from our addictions. It is the desire for holiness and virtue.

God is necessary to sustain that desire. With the assistance of the Lord our human will is directed towards our eventual union with Him. We place our will and our trust in Him, and He will bring us safely home.

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Renew My Steadfast Spirit

(My series on Psalm 51 resumes.)

In the 12th verse of Psalm 51, the penitent is granted a new start.

Psalm 51:12: “A clean heart create for me, God; renew in me a steadfast spirit.”

(Via USCCB.)

Sin has sullied and degraded the penitent. It had ruptured the relationship with God. The penitent, after the first half of the Psalm, is now ready to start anew.

But, not content with just picking up and moving on as before, now cleansed of sin. The penitent wants to be strengthened with “a steadfast spirit”, a renewed conviction to lead a virtuous life, holy in the sight of God.

Made clean by God’s grace and perhaps having learned from the experience, the penitent now strives to live according to God’s will.

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Cleanse me that I may be pure

In the 9th verse of Psalm 51 the penitent asks for a total cleansing:

Psalm 51:9: “Cleanse me with hyssop, that I may be pure; wash me, make me whiter than snow.”

(Via USCCB.)

The penitent asks for a restoration of their purity. In a way, a “recovery” of what they were before their sin disfigured their soul.

This is what we should be seeking when we are involved in our recovery from addiction. Alcoholism and addiction seriously distorts our true selves, it disrupts the “normal” path of life that we should have been on. Recovery seeks to restore what was lost. (This is for most people. For some, like me, recovery has been more than just “recovering” a normal life, it has been part of a call to spread the Gospel, although in not very traditional methods.)

We are children of God and as such our lives and souls should be a reflection of that. Although it is extremely hard to accomplish that in today’s world, purity can be achievable by heroic efforts. With God’s help, it can be done.

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The Spirit of Wisdom Came to Me

There is a nice excerpt from the First Reading for Mass for the 28th Sunday of Ordinary Time:

Wisdom 7:7: “I prayed, and prudence was given me;
I pleaded, and the spirit of wisdom came to me.”

(Via USCCB.)

As alcoholics and addicts we are familiar with seeking wisdom and prudence. It’s there in the short form of the Serenity Prayer said at most 12 Step meetings:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

One of the greatest gifts you can ask for is wisdom. It enables you to discern the good from the bad, to make rightly formed decisions as opposed to those based on feelings and emotion. It helps you to navigate the rough terrain and churning seas of daily life.

Pray for it.

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